Plagued by a Disease

Ok this disease isn't those that kills you.

Its the obsession with shoes disease. Since last year it seems no matter how mmuch I try to curb from buying shoes, I just don't have the will power to resist.

This is totally out of hand. I have start making a conscious effort to remind myself...

I guess my obsession with shoes and bags is becoz feet won't grow fat mah... same size until maybe unless it grows when you're preg and it stays big and not go back to the original size.

Have to start controlling myself....

Need to plan for a vacation this year!!!! Can't tahan anymore.. STRESSS killing me!!!!!!!!!

Freaky Friday

I wanted to blog about last Friday but due to unforseen circumstances, I have had to do some work on Fri nite, sat and even today. I only have time to blog after I have sent out the documents to my US counter part.

I was in the office at 6.15am on Friday. I had realized I didn't have the phone no of my counter part that I was suppose to have a conf call with at 10am local time. So what to do, woke up early and rushed to office and was in office by 6.15am which is about 4.30pm her time. Dail the no, ring ring ring but no answer???? Darn! So what to do, call helpline to get a conf bridge. And sent her the details and hoping that she would read the email before the meeting time.

the problem is it was so difficult to even get an appointment with her so i am not going to waste this chance ya. And at 10 min before the meeting she messages me and asked me to call her house. Waa damn kiam siap rite? Can't even call the conf brige. Never mind loh. I call her.

The whole freaking day at work was bloody bz. Resolve ticket, edit document. And head was hurting like shit.

I left work at 4 as i couldn't take it anymore. Head was pounding.Decided to go to MV coz i need to get some stuff.

DAMN FRIDAY!!! JAM and got into MV, no parking, no place to dump the car either to go pay for the ticket so i can leave. ESP after driving round P2 for 45 min!!!!!

Left MV after 45 min... and guess what.. Jam all the way back to my apt... Whats with Friday???? Darn it man....

Today...

I feel like crying..... Tears are welling up but I am just trying not to let it fall....
Feeling totally down the pits.
Its just the beginning of the year....
Sure darn hope its the end of the world.... end all of this crap....

Ahhh... Feels so Good

Its finally Friday. Ahhh.. i can breathe more easily. Been stiffling at work and bloody stress too.

nothing much to say except.... everything seems to be status quo.

Have to do some work this weekend. Aii.. don't you just hate having a laptop.

I am going to sleep well tonite and wake up late tomorrow.. kekekekee.

Snoring

Firstly I woud like to establish the fact that I am a very light sleeper. Hence its scary when I go for camps, trips, etc.

Sometims I have been lucky to have roomies that are ok and do not snore.

Since my mood is slightly better today, I would like to blog about this. Over the last weekend, I went for a camp and 3 people were assigned to a room. One of them quite a big size lady. Before I knew who my roomies were, i called my mom and said to her, i hope i won't get someone who snores!!!!

Bloodey bloodey Crap. This big lady snored throught out the whole freaking nite and blardly loud too. I didnt sleep a wink that nite. And what made it worse was i had one more nite to go.

I wonder how next time. Should i interview my future husband first on whether he snores... and actually find out whether he snores hahahhaa Coz i think life would be horrible if the snoring is for life. Noise pollution would be horrendous.

MUAHAHHAHAHAHAA

Recently....

My granny is home now but unfortunately, she is still not able to work. And being her stubborn self, she doesn't want to move her legs coz she is afraid of pain. But she needs to get used to using her legs at least starting with tryng to walk or else she might lose the ability to move forever.

Here I ask for your prayers that she will have the will power to do the exercises that she has been taught to do and that she would have the will to want to walk again.

Also over the weekend, i went for the leadership thingy. Either I was really naive or information wasn't provided in full. At the end of the session, we were forced to take up a leadership role for the movement. As you know I have left this ministry for a long time. I don't why God brought me back to the movement but I hope that I am able to do this. Therefore please pray for me.

Thirdly, I heard a rumour again today. This rumour was told to me couple of months ago and I prayed that time that it won't come true but that rumour surfaced again today. I don't want to move to OP-s. It sucks there and the people sucks there.
Another prayer request - pray that it won't happen that if a merger were to happen that I would be moved out from this skill set totally and to a new area.

Been darn stress coz I have to finish this big task by this week and all these things isn't helping either esp no 1 and 3.

not a very good beginning to the year 2007 ...

Updates on Granny

Granny had her ops yesterday and the ops was successful. She was placed in ICU yesterday after the ops for monitoring.
Should be pushed out by today.
Anyways, continue praying for her recovery.

Thank You....

Prayer Needed

My granny had a fall on Christmas Eve. We were having a pot luck dinner at my bro's and she fell and cracked her hip bone.

Since 25th dec , she has been in the hospital. One bad thing lead to another. The dr who was suppose to perform surgery on her, suddenly fell sick and just place another dr to do the ops. It happened to be a M and most of my uncles and aunties refuse to have a M treat my granny (aii..see... what happens even if you're a good M , people will think that ou're not good coz you might have gotten the position due to your color).

After fasting last nite, she was told that she couldn't go thru with the ops. So today another C dr was assigned to her and the surgery is due tomorrow.

please pray for my granny. She is 87 years old. Pray that everything will be ok and that she will pull thru the surgery.

My granny is the sweetest person you can find. A faithful servant of God.
So JC, please bless her and protect her when she goes for her ops tomorrow.....
AMEN.

Merry Christmas

Christmas is here!!!! I know - I am abit slow in posting. Not so much of not having time but just merely lazy hehehe. Still not too late to wish you guys Merry Christmas happy new year to my few readers - Ringgit, Gracie, Bahija.....

On the 24th of Dec, it being a Sunday, I went to church. Not having been able to make it for the confessions sessions around the churches where i live, I decided to do it before sunday mass. And before that I had a shitty walk to the church hehee. I stepped on some dog poo. So i had to go cleaned up my sandles on the grass and having not successfully in cleaning it totally - I had to resort to going to the tap and washing it with water. Hey can't see ma, at 7am in the morning. Still half asleep leh.
After the cleaning up, I passed by the confessional box and saw the light was green. Decided to step in and my clean my spiritual house bfore XMAS.

Since I won't be telling you what i confessed, I have to say this, the priest does see you face clearly, as I have had to kneel facing the wired window. During the course of the confession - as part of the explanation and such, he asked me do you love yourself? I said NO. And he said to me, ( i guess he was very surprised), you are very honest. :P Yeah I am very honest but look at where honesty has brought me so far. Down the rubber tubes.

Before I left for my vacation, one of my colleagues asked me what my new year resoluton would be. Well his actual words was.. so what you wanna achieve for next year. I hate making resolutions coz pondering over the year, I don't think I have managed to conquered much of the resolutions I made. But these are few of things that i would like to achieve.

1) Lose 5 kgs. so that I won't be depressed when I go out and buy clothes esp the thunder upper arms and thunder tighs and the rounded belly.

2) take care of my health - don't want no infection no more.

3) Remember to take vitamis and supplements to help achieve goal no 2.

Hopefully having a shorter resolution means the probablity of achieving them is higher.. kekekeke. *DREAMING*

my sista celebrated her 40th birthday on 23rd of DEC. 24th of DEC was my late sister in law's b-day.

Getting old isn't fun............. But i tell ya! she don't look 40 at all..

Day 3 of Break

Whoaaaaa.. time sure flies.
I am already into Day 3 of my break.
hehehe , there is actually nothing much to report as I have been doing nothing either.

Woke up around 9.30am. Still feeling tired. I think I am lack of some kind of vitamins. Head still feels heavy.

After breakie around 10+ decided to wrap all my presents. and place it under the tree. That tooks me to about 12pm. Had lunch and proceed to help my mom make pie tee shell.
Mom had to leave the house to go do something else around 2pm so I had to finish the task all by myself and glad to say it was done at 2.30pm.

Its now 3pm... couple more hours before the end of the day hits.

Day 2 of Break

Day 2 is almost coming to an end. 2 days gone just like that, nothing achived nothing done hehee. Yeah, one might think that isn't that what a vacation/break suppose to be!?
Yeah in a sense but still!!!

Woke up early, by 7.30am was out of the house, headed to collect my new travel document. Darn, they minus one day off from the expiry date...weird. it has always been 4th june XXXX but i noticed this new document had it as 3rd June XXXX. Hmmm... maybe they decided that 3rd is a better no? no point arguing with those govt buggers. Waste of time and breathe only really......

I got back and tried to sleep but tak jadi lerr... kepala pening. Rumah bising... suara ini suara itu... GRRRRRRRR....

started reading SHANTARAM - Gregory David Roberts. Heard that this book has now been banned here. I rented this one. But its like huge!!! THICKKKKKK.... will let you know if its worth the reading.....

Break Begins

Today I am official off work until next year. To achieve this, I actually have to clear 7 days of my annual vacation days. Well might as well, since to bring even a max of 5 days over - u need approval and a valid reason. Aii.. military , i tell you!!!!
Alcatraz is really alcatraz.... aiiii

Anyways, since I have been very extremely stressed and plagued with illness, this is a good thing. I took the opportunity to actually go renew my travel document which meant I have to be awake at 6+ and be at the place around 7+ as to start queueing for no. Aii.. life here when dealing with govt agencies.

hehehe.. farni thing happened again, i met someone I haven't seen since secondary school hehehe. she asked me, you from MGS, from prefectorial board before? yeah i said.. i said i remember you but can't exactly rememeber your name, something like T? she said yes!!! Gosh!!! memory not bad leh for an ageing person like me :P
Then after the whole episode of queueing and waiting, after we left that place, we called an old friend so that this T can speak to her. T has been living in Melb for the lats 3.5 years - migrated there. Then when I called L, she immediately said, wow you sure have a way of meeting old friends. hahahaa. Coz couple of months ago, it happend to me also to another friend who now resides in the UK. And now we r all in touch.

Its beyond my control, God puts me in a place and He brings me to people He wants me to meet :)

On another note, I have been approached to attend Servant of the Lord's weekend. I was contemplating whether I should go as I have since left this ministry for long time. But I dunno what happened when I called the lady to find out more, at the end of the conversation it was just like a yes from me. WEIRDDDDDD *twilight zone song playing*

Well, I am going to enjoy my break!!!! and not think about work!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

And please pray that I will be healed frm this sickness. Its really dragging me down fast.

IL DIVO

IL Divo will be coming to MY shores comes 16th of Jan. When I first read about this months ago, I was so excited. Finally I am able to see these hunks who could really sing live!!!!

Unfortunately, I found out the cheapest ticket cost RM500!!!!!! Ok I may love to attend the live show but ain't that siow yet.

RM500 - you could do alot with that.

:(

Better luck next time.

Did I jinx myself?

Its now 5am local time. I have up since 3.30am. Why?? Coz my coughing fit is unable to let me even sleep.

From 3.30am till now, I have been coughing non stop and I have already ran out of cough mixture.

What to do? Can't lie down. Each time I do that, the phelgm sort of runs up to the throat and irritate the shit out of it and the coughing fit starts. Also the nose sorta gets blocked too.

this is excruciating .....

Have to wait for a few more hours bfore i head to see the dr.
But I am so worried. I have so much task to do at work. But I am sick right. So I should be sort of excused.

DARN....
I want to get well before Christmas leh.

Rush Rush

I am glad to be home.
Since I am feeling better, I shall blog abit about how i felt as soon as I step foot at the bus depo in PJ. After 6 hours on my butt, when I finally got off and touched local soil, I was so relieved.

First thing I really felt was the calmness. Weird huh. I just felt that while I was at SG, the pace was so rush rush. Everywhere people are walking in drones and face pace. Crowded. I felt there was no room to breathe fresh air.

And when you look at those ppl's faces, rarely you can find someone who actually smiles sincerely. Well with exception if you're white in color lah huh.

I cherish this feeling of calmness and able to breathe more relax.

Abit of rush rush is good.. but too much... would be bad for health.

Back from the South

I left for the south island on Friday while still heavily sedated with cough mixture, throat lozenges and nose block medication.

I was so ready to bring out the gold card and shop after the 9 hours at church performing my pilgrimage on the 9 novenas.

Glad to say that I made it, I completed the it and spend 9 hours in church. Solely going thru one novena after another and with just 1 hour break for lunch.

Imagine, after 6 hours bus ride... reached where we were suppose to stay at 5pm. Then spend the nite having dinner and then sleep. We stayed with my friend's relative. Well seriously sometimes I feel its better to just stay at the hotel. Less obligation, you know what i mean.

sunday, i had to meet someone ( ringgit you know who). met the dragon lady also who half the time kept juling here and there. Then i saw her using her finger to push my little nep's head. What the F?

Anyways, I only 3 things, 1 pair of shoes , last supper clay display at the church and 1 PLASTIC bag (very cute one). Thats all. the gold card didn't come out at all neither did I even spend much cash.

And I came back with a worse off cough and worse sinus infection. Looks like things are not going well once more in the dept of health.

Currently typing and having a coughing fit.

Left camera at work. So will ake a picture once I am able and post it up hehehehe

Lucky?

hooo hooo... last Saturday was our annual D&D.

And guess what?? for the last lucky draw which was the 5 top lucky draw!!! my name was called - last! meaning i was suppose to win the grand prize under normal circumstances but due to the twist - they had us choose the prize, me having to go first. But suih betul lah my tangan, choose the least value one.. HAHAHAHHAHA.. luck loh

But out of the hundreds of people, I managed to be called leh!!!! I never won anything before ever and this is the first!!!!!

I won a panasonic microwave with grill but I can go the stipulated shop and change for something else that has the same value or if its more, then i top up!!! ok loh hor!!!! Won something

but my table is quite lucky this year. 2 guys won RM150 voucher and we also got second place for the table quiz!!!! hehehehe.. so 300 shared by 10 ppl. Not bad lah......

Good day mannn.

But on the bad side, i am sick today... :(

Lunch Conversation

I met up with a friend this afternoon for lunch.
I was actually already on my way to the bank when she called. So we agreed to meet after i finish my stuff at the bank. But when I got to the bank, the crowd was too huge so I ended up abandoning the whole task.

Had lunch with her at Coffee Bean. I hardly see her esp after she got married and now with a small little boy. Sorry to say but i totally despise the husband. Totally china pek and very condesending type of person.

First thing she says was, eh you ever think about living the country? I guess thats whats on everyone's mind. She plans to migrate when her child is bigger. Hmmm..

I guess thats understandable esp with all the negative publicity lately.

How i really feel.... has changed alot.. but thats a story for next time...

TAR Asia

Eh... i am glad that the two filipina gals are eliminated. WHY? SO BIMBO lah..
Talk about make up lah how they look lah.. please lah. Diggin sand also ask if its SEXY. Aiyoh gives such a wrong impression of women...
Not like they are so hot anyways..

Glad they got booted out.

But i was kinda disappointed that the other filipina couple got booted out 2 episodes ago.... I would think they would have done well but unfortunately just unlucky this time.

Staring

Of late I realized that Malaysians are quite a rude lot. Well maybe all the while they have been but just that this staring bit is getting to me.

This had been happening quite alot lately and it sort of upset me.
I was at sushi king the other day, having lunch. There was this lady - supposely rich looking, with diamonds and what not and her 3 boys. I was seating alone eating (yes I do eat alone most of the time) and suddenly she was talking loudly on the phone. I just went on eating my food and suddenly i looked up and saw her staring at me and somemore juling juling wor. What the F?

Not like i knwo you!
Then yesterday during lunch time, I decided to get a new pair of shoes, as I just managed to kill the long life warts on my pinky toe. THANKS to Verrumal (and the pharmacist from watson that recommended it to me after the faield Duoflim). I was walking minding my own business like always and this girl walking infront of me just blatantly stared at me?? WHAT THE H? I don't even know you BIATCH.

malaysians should learn how to look more discretely without getting off as STARING rudely.

Piss me off man....

On the lighter note, I decided to indulge abit and bought myself a ninewest shoes. Its covered since heresay goes, office will be implementing strict rules on dressing pretty soon. And I just weighed myself, even after the monthly water retention period... I am still lighter by 2 kgs. YAHOOOO.... 3 more KGS to go....

But why ppl say they can't see the difference ah.. DARN!